Thursday, April 7, 2011

Tough Days

So lately, i've been running into a few "woe is me" days. Sometimes I feel like i'm the only 20 something who is going through huge life changes, about to graduate college with nothing to do with my life, always worried about money and stressing about how much time I don't have on my hands, and then I snap out of it bc I see that EVERY other 20 something in America is going through the same thing that I am. It sucks, but it's just a fact of life. Some days you just have to keep fighting no matter how rough things may get. You have to look at the positives and push through.

If i've learned this from anyone, it's my mom.

As some of you may know, almost a year ago, my mom suffered from a brain hemmorage. When my stepdad called me and told me what had happened to my mom, it was one of the scariest moments in my life. My mom was airlifted to Charlotte, and thank God for my friend, Shannon, because I wouldn't  have been able to make that drive alone. It still brings me to tears thinking about that day. My mom was in intensive care for what seemed like forever after that, and I remember not being able to sleep or anything during that time.
It's been a year since that happened and my mom is still seeing the effects of her brain hemmorage. She suffered from short term memory loss. (She recently tested 15%... normal is between like 50-75%). She also stills gets frequent dizzy spells. Because of these two combinations, she still has not been released to drive by doctors. Anyone who knew my mom prior to what happened would know that this is hard for her. My mom has worked since she was a young teenager and was the most independent woman I've known. When my mom went for a routine catscan after this incident, the doctors also found a large mass on her thyroid that they said had to be removed. She's had one surgery, but they have to go back in to remove the rest next month. She also tore her rotator cuff in her shoulder when she passed out after her brain hemmorage.

I know it has been one of the longest years of my mom's life and she's got a long way to go, but she's the biggest fighter i've ever met. Everyday is one day closer to getting her back to her normal self. It seems so unfair that something this major has happened to her, but then again, there are so many things in life we just don't understand. We can spend our whole life questioning why certain things happen to us, or we can get up and change our fate.

My mom is my hero. She's had to deal with more in the past year than some people will encounter in a life time.

There's going to be tough days ahead, but I know we'll make it through.... my mom taught me that.

1 comment:

  1. We'll keep your mom and whole family in our thoughts and prayers!